bring on summer

this weekend was a really fantastic, tumultuous, complicated, relief of a weekend. i felt like i hadn't had a weekend in MONTHS. not a proper one.

i realise now that a lot of this is that the sun finally came out. properly. not in that wimpy, hey it's going to rain again soon and go back to being 15 degrees, way that it has occasionally throughout winter. it was actually warm for the first time in ... since what, May? i turned pink from sitting outside at lunchtime on sunday! i cannot underestimate just how much good some sunshine will do. (not the burny cancerous part, the vitamin d part.) i felt alive again. makes me want to move to the gold coast and sunbake through winter every year.

also, and in no particular order:

i found a wedding dress that makes my heart sing
i had breakfast and lunch (in the one day!) with a lady who is making me happy with a new kind of friendship
i had time to lie around with the fianc and not feel exhausted
i had a big, good, much needed cry. or two.
i did things just for myself
i talked to my mum properly for the first time in months. (missed her a lot.)
i ate one of my favourite summer foods, and it was delish
i started to actually feel really 'me' about the wedding - like it's for us, not somebody else

and tonight i got home from work, and the sun was still shining, and it was warm, and i went for my favourite run with lady gaga pumping in my ears and the wind from the sea through my hair.

things are looking up!

weekend roundup

good things:

wedding dresses that come in parcels in the mail. it's like christmas for grownups, shopping on ebay, especially in the era of credit cards. i tried on the dress and twirled around and figured out the alterations and got all excited. i showed fianc (we are not of the superstitious or the lame. he has excellent dress sense.) and he said he thought i looked hot. WIN.

camembert and french baguette.

second hand market bookstores. or just, you know, any second hand book stores anywhere.

cats that want to sleep all curled up next to you and stop you from going to sleep with their purring.

champagne and tapas on a friday night with excellent conversation. best night out i've had in a while. delightful, and when you eat barely anything, surprisingly inexpensive!

bad things:

the new neighbours above us decided to have a party on friday night. i got home at 11.30, champagne-fuelled, and fell asleep. until 2.30. then 3.30. then 4.30. at about 5.25 they turned off the brain-numbing thumping bass music JUST before i was about to go upstairs in my pajamas and physically kill them / scream obscenities / ok probably give them a cutting speech about how they were new in the building and now everyone hated them, nice one new kids. thank god they have stopped the music now, i thought. a minute later they started singing along at the top of their lungs to music from Glee. my death instinct warred with my instinct to laugh hysterically; the latter won. just.

more good things:

saturday afternoon naps. i must go do this now. later we will return you to your regularly scheduled programming.